J a n e C a r o l i n e
TABS ♥♥♥ :)
Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for making me smile. For the pain, corny jokes, treat, effort, worry. It’s just that, thank you for everything. For the best and worst feeling I’ve ever felt in my life. Thank you.
I remember the first time we talked. It was the end of the school year last year. That moment when I cried because of someone else and you called but I didn’t answer. Wait, do you remember how Francis Siopao and I were close back then and you told me you don’t like him for me? He’s abnormal. I remember when he posted “Goodnight” and some random stuffs on my timeline and everyone else made an issue about us. Anyway, we continued to talk and talk and talk. During my third year, I spent most of my time talking to you, through chat, text or phone calls. Remember when we talked about each other’s crushes? And God, you were the first person to know who’s my crush! I don’t know why but it looks like you really won my trust easily.
It’s amazing how we got this far. Like what I’ve told you, I don’t want to care about you in the first place. I don’t want to feel the same old feeling of getting betrayed by someone you trusted. But I learned how to care for you, how to value you and to love you.
I’m sorry for all the wrong things I’ve done. I’m sorry for being so immature sometimes that we end up fighting and arguing. I’m sorry if I’m not the best you have. I’ll try to. I know I’m not who you wanted. I seem like an extra in your life and I’m sorry if I caused confusion. I’m sorry. I’m very very sorry.
I want you to know that I’ll always be here for you. I will never leave you. I want you to be happy. I’ll try my best to make you feel you are worth everything. You’re my second guy best friend, my first Kuya, the one I’ve trusted so much, first hug, kiss. If it’ll happen, you’ll be my first and last. But does it matter? Does the order matter? No. I have no idea I’m going to say this because it’s true, but I love you. I love you just the way you are. I love you even if you’re not perfect, even if you have many flaws, even if you can’t give me the moon and the stars. I still love you. I promise to love you ‘til the day that my hair is already white, the day when I can’t even stand or walk. I’ll love you ‘til the day that I die. As long as you’ll ensure that you won’t take me for granted. I’m already sure with you :) Believe me. I love you Tabs :* Thank you for everything.
The best thing is having a guy best friend. You know you have someone who’ll listen to your endless drama in life. Someone who’s willing to be there for you when no one else wants to. Someone who’ll cheer you up on a very bad day. Someone who knows the real story behind your fake smiles. Someone who will stay up a bit later just to wait for you to finish your business before going to sleep. You have someone you can talk to all the way from goodmorning to goodnight without getting bored. It is simply the best.
I’m thankful because I have him. He made me feel happy, sad, cry, angry, confused, and crazy. He treats me like a little sister, he cares like a sweet brother. I am happy because he’s a part of my life. I don’t want to lose him. It’s like he’s been a part of my everyday life and without him, everything would be unusual. He’s nothing but the best.